It happens to all of us. It happens by surprise. It happens when we are making progress. It happens when we are nearing the end of a process. The wall. A barrier that prevents us from continuing. It's too high to climb, though you can see the top and it taunts you. It's too strong to break through but you know there's got to be a weakness somewhere. It's just so gigantic that you can't find it anywhere. It's taking weeks to walk alongside it as you strike it with your strongest swings with your best sledgehammer, but you just can't find that weak spot.
I struck wall #1 two weeks ago. In classic fashion, it happened in the middle of one of the best writing and mixing streaks I've had in months. The board on my MacBook Pro failed. Everything is intact, it just won't power on anymore. Apple has deemed it a "vintage" machine and getting replacement parts is nearly impossible and not even close to worth it, so I had to buy a new one. Thankfully I have a father who is willing to help in times where we don't have the funds for such expensive gear. (Cheers, dad!) The new machine is incredible, but I've not had a chance to even work with it yet since we are also in the middle of a move... wall #2.
Like our new MacBook Pro, our new place is amazing. It feels good to be in a new and inspiring space, but the chore of unpacking and setting up certainly has its difficulties and it always takes longer than we anticipate. I've come to realize that life seems to operate that way -- things will always take a while, so we might as well enjoy it.
Here's how I'm enjoying life right now: I'm decorating those walls with memories. I'm allowing those barriers to build up our life than rather than seeing them as a blockade. I am using the time I now have to contemplate all the good that's happened. I am spending more time with Kim in more meaningful ways. We are enjoying unpacking and setting up the new place together. I am not busy-minded and stuck in the mixes and songs; I am humming new melodies. I'm letting life happen. It's singing to us. It's taking colorful snapshots of us and the moments we share. These walls will serve us well. These walls don't need to be torn down. They are now a beautiful surface to marvel at. Maybe they're building something much better that we just can't see.